" I got so good at the game, no one could tell that I was faking sane."

Sometimes you just have to be mature enough to admit that you are wrong.  I, being very immature, don't know that lesson too well yet. I  can not take someone's word for something, I have to go and find things out for myself. For example, Lets say you ask a close friends opinion on if you should actively try to get to know this girl/ date her. He says no, she's a sketchy hefer that moves on to a new guy every week and just talks to you to get free dinner for that week. I have to ask her out to see if she is really like that, and yeeeep the friend was right. Or you ask someone about going to a particular area of interest and he says, that it is close to impossible to go to and find, unless someone already showed you where it is. I have to try to find those places. Guess you could say that this part of my personality has some good to it, in the way that I'm always questioning what I hear and that I have to find out for myself what I was told. On the other hand, It could save me SO much time, effort, sleep, heartbreak and money if I only was better at listening to what people tell me.
I tell you this, because I've been thinking about the times my parents  try to give me advice on things that they have learned first hand about life and the lessons they've learned from it. But no, I am way, way to stubborn to believe that what happened to my parents would be relevant to me in this day and age, because I know my self better than anyone, so how could anyone else have anything that could help me succeed....  just like a coach of a sports team, everyone has some great personal insight on how to play this crazy game of life that we are all a part of. I need to be better at learning lessons of other peoples mistakes, so that I don't commit the same mistake. Kind of like the whole "those who don't understand history are bound to repeat it."  That's totally me, I can't take someone's word for something I have to go find out for myself. I am only 21 years old and have only temporarily been out of my parents house for about 3 years. So, obviously I have  a great understanding of how to be an adult, how the real world works and how to succeed on my own... NOT... I have some what of a pride issue and think that I can not let anyone know that I am not doing anything but being the most happy person in the universe at all times and that nothing ever goes wrong and everything is always perfect at all times.  Well, that's a lie. I often struggle with a lot of things, that I don't like to tell people about. I guess I'm not just the happy go lucky, class clown person that I try to portray myself as. I get scared of many things, many things that don't make sense to a lot of people, like monkeys, being in cold water, those micro fiber towel type things and wind storms because I can't fathom how wind works..... like its not there, and then its there. Its weird.......
    What I wanted to get to with this post was that  everyone's fighting their own battles, and they might not show you or let you know what's going on, so be nice to people. ALso, I would like to tell my parents how much I love and appreciate them for everything that they do. I take for granted so many things my parents help me with, because I have to prove to myself that I am worth something and that I can be independent and succeed on my own... the truth is, I'm a baby and can't do anything. I don't know why I even try to convince myself that I can do things on my own. I know eventually I will have to take care of my self, but that's why I should find a wife so she can take care of me (that's for you Niki G)
I just know I need to start being a better son, brother, friend and student and things will happen for the better. When things get rough, keep pushing, but you always have help by your side and so many loved ones in your corner there to help you when you need it the most.
Family Forever.
"Tough times don't last, tough people do."- I can't remember....

“Knowledge, like air, is vital to life. Like air, no one should be denied it.”

              Between listening to Rise Against, watching V for vendetta and law abiding citizen, and my readings for environmental psychology and natural resources, may be causing my rebel, conspirator or even my inner Che Guevara to be brought to light. No I don't believe in over throwing the government or do any crazy, radical terroristic threat to anyone or anywhere. But I do believe that we should be more aware of the world around us. The book I had to read for En Psych, was called "Zeitoun" its about a guy from Syria that through a long course of events, ends up starting a family and a promising construction company in New Orleans. The story plays out like this: (Sorry for spoilers, but oh well im saving you time. unless you do still do want to read it.) The year was 2005, and there have been hurricane warnings for the gulf areas. Zeitoun, doesn't want to leave his house, and the many other properties which he looks over, up to mother nature. So, his family leaves for Baton Rouge, and he decided to ride out the storm in his house, in hope that he can save major damage from happening to his properties. Hurricane Katrina happens.... throughout the actual hurricane, his house did not happen to suffer any major destruction, but the aftermath is where the story really begins. After the storm had run its course, the levees that protect New Orleans from these kind of natural events, collapsed and made an already sketchy New Orleans city into something you might see on a post-apocalyptic video game "Fallout". after the city had been mostly flooded and many areas had been completely consumed by water, there was anarchy that followed. people were robbing, raping, killing, stealing other people for simple supplies like water and food. Others formed gang like operations and would loot people, their houses, the stores for essentials and other goods like, boats, generators and so forth. While this was going on, multiple armed forces teams, police and hired guns from all over the country were send to the remains of NOLA. These were war ready army forces that were going to go to the middle east, to fight our war on terrorism, but were transferred to NOLA to uphold the peace. What went on in the after math of Katrina was horrific. Zeitoun luckily had a old aluminum canoe that he would go around and help people get off their homes roofs, out of their houses and would often times bring supplies to those in need. while canoeing around, he found some old friends who also stayed back during the storm. He and his 3 friends ended up getting arrested  in a swat team like procedure because they were assumed to be looters and terrorists. they were then sent to make shift prisons (that didn't exist) of which were treated very, very badly.

                How much power does our government have over us, what can they do and how much do they hide from us? Granted, I wouldn't want to tell my entire country that wrongs that I have done, how much they are in danger or how to deal with incredibly controversial subjects either. Somethings are good for us to be  oblivious to, it keeps us happy not knowing what all is going around us. But there are certain things that you can not hide from the people. Like the mistreatment of a lot of hurricane Katrina survivors for instance.... aaaaaaand Yucca Mountain. If you don't know what it is, its  70,000 metric ton facility for nuclear waste. Nuclear waste from all over the United States, but mostly the east. Nuclear waste that will take up to 10,000 years to not be detrimental for your health. how exactly are they going to move the waste from the east, to the desert of Nevada..... trucks and trains......
 Transporting waste to Yucca Mountain puts the American public at risk. More than 123 million people live near the proposed truck and train routes which would be used to deliver waste to Yucca Mountain. Those routes travel through 703 counties in 44 states. An accident or attack along those routes could hurt or kill thousands of innocent people.

I don't know if you notice, but the transportation mostly would go through 1-80 and 1-15 to make it to Yucca. The nuclear waste would have to pass through SLC and Cedar. To remove the waste completely,  they would have to send trucks as big as football fields many times for 25-30 years. and what if an accident happened and a truck crashed? that surrounding 30 mile radius would be deemed as " Uninhabitable"

         Again, I'm not saying that we need to over throw our government in hopes of  "new world order"  I do however believe that we need to be a more educated people, know who we are voting for and hold our government more accountable for wrongs that are done and work together to solve and help when it comes to Natural disasters and man made disasters like In Japan, where an earthquake caused a tsunami, running into and destroying a nuclear power plant.

“People shouldn't be afraid of their government. Governments should be afraid of their people.”