I'd play the victim, but I only have myself to blame.

As we all know, life can take us on a roller coaster ride of emotion. Any day could turn out to be one of the best days of your life, where everything is going extremely well! You wake up on time, you go to class and actually understand the subject matter that was presented, then you take a nap with no interruptions, to then wake up, drink Mtn Dew and make a dinner of elk steak, then play a basketball game and play somewhat decent to then getting to hangout with this extremely cool and beautiful girl you've been to scared to talk to, since like the 2nd week of school. Thats a good day to me! But often times than not, the stars do not line up like that, and you end up waking up late for math, showing up late and having NO idea what you are doing. Then you continue to go to your classes, and continue to get even more confused with how cellular respiration works, how ATP is made, and how inverse functions mean anything to the real world. Then you go to your apt and find out you ate all of your microwavable meals, and you don't have a can opener, and no money to go to 1 of the 3 places to eat in this town. and get…( okay, you get the point) sometimes life can suck! But most everyday, I make things, about…… 100,000 x more difficult or confusing than they need to be! Its amazing, how for a lot of things, I couldn't care less about. Then somethings I care WAY to much about, and it seriously can ruin my day, even week sometimes! Good nit! During college football season, Pretty much all of my small attention span, is used to concentrate  on everything that involves LSU.
    To say the least, "we" as Humans, often times take things for granted and disregard things that aren't important to us, but could be the most important thing to someone else. Like giving old/ not very used items of clothing to friends or to strangers at the DI, that are not in as good of situations as us. Giving a ride to someone that is walking across our frozen tundra of a campus, so that they aren't almost getting frost bite by the time they get to class.
       We can always do more for others, and I know that when I help others more than myself, I feel a lot better about who I am, and how life is going. Trust me, its not easy at all to serve others more than yourself, but when you do, you feel more at peace and more positive and happy…Don't  take this as, that I think I'm some perfect saint or what ever.. because I feel like I am very selfish and only look to please myself, but when I do go out of my way to help others, my "problems" seem to diminish rapidly.
         So I think we all can do better job of realizing what we have, and not making a big deal of things we don't have.. We all have SO much to offer, we just have to discover where our skills and personalities flourish. I know that I am not good at math, science and most everything that takes place in a class room, I can't be an accountant, business man, or a military man. But I know that I am good at reading and dealing with other people, and with that skill of working with people, combined with my love of history and the outdoors, has made me a good Adventure Guide.

     I guess to wrap up my thoughts, (again) we all have so much to offer, and we should all try to be more positive toward our endeavors and really that we aren't just dust in the wind, that we are not meaningless and we all have a purpose on this earth. Also, We need to realize how much we are blessed with ( I'm really, really bad at this) and we need to put more emphasis on the positives and not so much on the negatives.. The negatives are good ( I know it never seems like it) if we use them right, and learn from them! Quit being your worst enemy and losing the game, before it even starts. And when no body believes in you and life seems to be the darkest, you better believe in yourself.